Where do we draw the line? Is there anyway to find equilibrium without completely losing our mind? How do we find this vital stasis and still live everyday like it’s our last? Living, really living, meaning we are not afraid to love, take risks, and be hopeful in our everyday life, puts us in a very vulnerable position. A position so vulnerable that when something takes us by surprise, good or bad, you feel it in every fiber of you being. What’s wrong with this picture? How do we turn off our feelings, even our beliefs, to stop hurting without shutting out the good things too? Will this war that rages within me ever stop? Is there anything wrong with being this intense when it is simply a part of who I am?  Is this what makes me unique? Is there anything wrong with caring so much about everyone you know or come in contact with that sometimes you feel like your heart can not hold anything else?

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Some really beautiful quotes from a book, The Reason for Roses, written by Babs H. Deal, which i read last summer.......

"Because life is a process and it accumulates; and nothing is ever lost. Nothing is ever lost. We learn to love by loving. We learn to live by living. We learn to die by dying a little all along the way." pg. 82

"You didn't plant them. You just love them. And it doesn't matter whether they care or not. What matters most is the way you feel." pg. 152

"Life isn't ever wasted, not really. One way or another we are all part of all we've ever met." pg. 230

"We are all flawed and we are all blessed; not only by the environment, but in the gene." pg. 275